got.to.forget!

ak pun tatao napa our ms aezm b'smgt m'blkgkan assignment sejarah yang b'lambak utk m'update nee blog lae . hee . as always , ak rasa ak t'fallin' for da wrong mr taken in da wrong place at da wrong tym . aie . currently listenin' to ach ;) punya blog's song . mana duk sendiri d tgh mlm nee . menjadijadi laa emo ku nee ;D hhe . back to da main point ! yaa . ak keep convincing ak punya diri sendiri ; not more than friend . tapi kan , evrytym ak on9 , i keep viewing his profile , crossing finger , hoping dat he'll be in a relationship no more . hee ~ i know . its kinda' mean . huhh . ak tlampao bawa kata katanya ke hati kali , kan . nee lae satu , mr so-perasaan-d-sukak etu tlh m'aku . ak swa agak pun benda tuu . nauzubillah . confession tuu lebih meyakinkan yg idup ku nee masi blm jmpa mr right ak . mr wrong jaa suma . haha . mang laa baa . blm -the end- lae . dats y laa kali , kan :D btw , hari nee kinda besh laa jwa . on da phone dgn dya smpi kdt nazak . haha . jalan dgn doang CHUNKYOOKS ayn & nur . netao ke mana sedja smpi plg maghrib . haha . padahal , nada jwa m'beli apapa . penat dgn mengabis duit jaa ;D xpaa laa . enjoy jwa . haha . balik , dgr mama m'bebel kejap . ndq pa laa . kalao bkn mama yg supply duit , xbole by jln . syg mama ! haha ;) then , trus direct hadap laptop , on9 sambil menghadap sejarah . xlama , abish swa mood kerajinan lalu assignment d tggalkan dan bloggie plak d hadap ;) mpon plak , ak sengaja kasi mati . hkhkhk ~ boringnya bole m'bunuh . xda baa yg ble d tex . suma sebok struggle . ndq pun , sebok melayan boipren . HIPSTERS ? DISTURBER IS STRICTLY NOT ALLOWED TO DISTURB ME ! mwahaha . nemao lyn dya nee hari . penat ! KH ? ouu . netao . still mcm bacat sikit . FINE ! ak netao jwa wut wrong she've done to me . tapi , ak mmg xbrapa skak . slh ku jwa kali . hee . baa . yalaa . penat ak sehari bejalan jaa . mata pun suda berat . dats all for now ! ^___^

'' i am not going to force myself to forget da one dat i lyk diz tym coz it'll make me think about him even more ;) so , lets do it naturally . ''

cupid yang stupid ! mengAIM org jaa baa ! :D

cik aezm baru ada mood mao m'update ne messy bloggie selepas dya m'delete suma post yg ada kaitan ma saturang mr so-perasan-d-sukak :D banyak mao kongsi cerr . haha . MRSMT ? ak rasa lebi besh . haha . yaa . ada sum1 yang make me feel i was really appreciated d sana . we're getting closer . i lyk him . he said he lyk me . BUT , for sure , nothing more than friend will happen . i cant escape da truth ; he got her (: ehmm . when he study in da same class witt me , when he annoys me and make me kry , i even say ;  EEE ! NAMAO SEKELAS DGN MANUSIA YANG BEGITU ! CEPAT LAA ROMBAK ! , when he text and call me to apologise , when da class d rombak , when i kry becoz i'm not in da same class wit him anymore [ i regret my own word ! ], when we become closer , when his phoney kena rampas ole warden , when i started to feel lonely without his annoying word , when da both of us become a partner in a motivation programme , when he tex me using his friend's phoney , when he said dat he 'hate' me , when we sit together on our journey back to college after da facyfacy outing talkin' about 'hate' [ i secretly wish dat we have some little more extra tym ] , when we're on da phone , i juz want to hear him talkin' about him , his lyf and himself (: i shut my non-stop-talkin'-fuckin' mouth up . 2 hours on da phone . his words , our conversation , a whole new prespective for me . he make me realise , it iz all about da risk to always exploring new thing in lyf . and lyf iznt all about FUN lyk i thought it was . and all da moment wit him iz da moment i treasured . i think i cant help it to keep fallin' for him . haha . yaa . i'll try to get over it . ' I LYK U ' iz not an assurance for him to be mine , kn . hee . ALLAH ! cupid ne stupid ! dya m'aim org yg slh ! haha .

it was lyk ;

When you think he’s you’re prince charming, but you’re not his cinderella, move on.

i often feel very stupid to kry over him . he doesnt even knows it . huhh . cm jaa dya tuu bf ku -_____-''